Just when I thought I'd begun to really see and know God as being wonderfully good and infinitely wise, He brings me to a newer and deeper level of understanding. His purposes are divine and His plans are so intricately woven together. Hindsight, of course, is always 20/20 and looking back over the past year, I can clearly see the Lord's leading and perfect timing in our lives. I see how my heart has changed and was prepared. I see the Lord's provision in our lives. I am so grateful, my cup overflows.
Jordan and I are having a baby.
Even now, at 13 weeks, it all just seems so bizarre and unreal. Bizarre in that my sweet baby's body is formed all the way to the fingerprints and is already so specialized at only 13 weeks of life. Unreal in that I can barely wrap my mind around the reality that I have new life within my body.
And at the same time, I've never felt so full of joy and so fiercely attached to this little life.
Meet my sweet child.
I just want to praise the Lord for every heart beat, every movement, every moment. Scripture assures us that the Lord is the One who knits life together in the womb, who has our days numbered even before they begin. Psalm 139 has become so beautifully new and real.
I am overwhelmed by my Creator and my small role in His creation.
I am elated.
Baby M is set to arrive November 1, 2012.